keep on dreaming, don't stop imagining, not afraid of believing. What matter is how you see things!
Thursday, December 31, 2009
Last day
This year I always heard ppl say : I dont want to go back to school, I need more holiday..smth like that. But for me..I hav to face the music. This is life and I am anxious bout year 2012. Will that be the end of the year?
I am not sure whether tomorrow I should hang out with frens or not...Yesterday, I played for the whole day already.
9am - 1 pm = Brigade meeting;
1pm - 2pm = having lunch in Catherine's house;
2pm - 4++pm = badminton;
4++pm - 5.30pm = went to Grandview's park;
5.30pm - 7pm = bathing in Catherine's house;
7pm - 10.30pm = BBQ (BGB).
As you can see here, I am fully booked yesterday. Actually is I let myself to be fully booked as I know tat I won't hav much time to hang out with frens in next year. Mandy asked us to hang out with her tomorrow but at the same time Michelle asked me to play badminton with them. Which side should I choose? Or should I join both? Or not joining any of them? I should throw these questions to my mum xD..Anyway tomorrow I hav to giv my hair a cut..
Many thgs to plan in Girls' Brigade too. We hav to prepare for the Recruitment..urghh, hav to get the photos from officers. I should ask other ppl to get it, but I am not sure whether they can get it or not. I still cant rely on them, or should I say I cant give them my full trust. Our secretary dont know their jobs very well as no one really tell or teach them before. I am not sure whether they can handle it or not. Actually I believe that they can do it the problem is time. Two words for myself: Be patience
My father is coming home tonight, I hav to pack my 'hills' too. See you~
From the deepest of my heart: Thank you, year 2009. I am still breathing now because of you. I cant let you go I dont want you to be part of my memories I am gonna to miss you..What la, crazy=) L ooking F orward T o Y ear 2012 xD
~加油!!~
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
tats the way u are
I'd been through a lot of first time in this holiday...and those first times would be my last time to be the first time. That means no more 1st time, but will be the 2nd time and so on. I will b missing tos first times.
On 19th of Dec,
Morning:
First time i learnt how to drive; first time I drove on the highway and back to the drving department; first time my driving couch spent me to eat breakfast; first time i told my fren bout all these drivng stuff; first time I get my lisence L; first time my dad asked me hw was the first try.
Afternoon:
First time my fren concern bout me whether i gt gastric o not coz i dint took my lunch and went to Basel; first time i practice for praise and worship; first time i sang in a band.
Night:
First time I saw ppl caroling (live show) in Ser Ern's house. Actually i am not goin thr, but her mum asked me so I joined. First time I wrote emcees script for x'mas party; first time I wrote the script until 1 am.
hmm..i cant finish here, but i'll continue next time bout my first time
On 20th night, i dreamt bout a sunglass bcoz Esmond lost his on the x'mas party. I know exactly hw it feels like whn u lost ur baby.
On 21th night, I dreamt bout eating goldfish while we go camping bcoz Kate got a goldfish as her birthday present from her parents.
Thursday, December 17, 2009
long time no see
Right, I tell you what is in my mind now
1. chemistry homework
2. Physic homework
3. chritmas party's meeting
4. party at Ser Ern's house (caroling)
5. Daddy is coming back now, he'll reach home at bout 12midnight
6. Script for the chirtmas party
7. Being the MC for this year's christmas party
8. Avatar
9. My message
I am kinda frustrating, nervous, happy, exciting, curious and unease. Everything are up and down now. I can feel the changes of my heartbeat and tat was fun and amazing. We as human being have a lot of feelings. We can sense things..we know the diffrences. I dont know how to explain it..its kinda cute and so magical. How can we know our own feelings?
-I believe in you-
Sunday, November 8, 2009
Lazy pig
This is my newly learnt poem..enjoy^^
WOULD YOU CARE?
Would you care if i died, well, why should you?
You don't even know my name,
There is no way that you could have helped.
You're not the one to blame.
You cannot feel the hunger pains, the loneliness or thirst,
I live in a savage, war-torn land,
but to die alone is worst.
You live in an affluent, wealthy land,
Your poor are rich, compared to me.
You feed your children much more than they need,
whenever they hold out their hand.
I'm just a skinny black boy with no schooling and no home,
I wander dirty, dusty streets, begging for a crumb.
I have a heart, I have a soul, I have a right to live,
when you balance your budget, isn't there any left to give? *i love this sentense*
If only I knew that somebody cared whether I lived or died,
If only I knew that somebody saw the pitiful tears I cry.
I'd like to have dreams like your children
of what the future might mean to me,
but before I can ever have a dream, I have to have a future, you see.
Today I am so happy in FB..haha with all those comments and also felt quite frustating talking about those nonsense. Anyway, FB did cheer up my day..haha
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
The one I care
* They don't want other ppl to help them because they pity them
* They still want to do things by their own, even though they can't
* They feel like they increase their family burdens
* They realize that they are weak and always needed help
* They can bite hard things anymore and hav to rely on their fake teeth
* When they can't chew well, they will think that you don't treat them well as you always cook the foods untill very soft but most of them are not tasty.
* They still believe that they are young
* They like to ask you to buy smth they love(food), but later on they don't eat it
* etc...
This is not the end yet. I observed all these things from my granny. She's acting like a child now. I am scared. She keeps complaining about her ability for doing some easy stuff. She becomes more and more pessimistic. I truly realized that this is what we called old. Just now, she borrowed a scissor from me. My mum asked her whether she is going to use that scissor to cut the chicken. She don't admit it. How can you use an ordinary paper cutting scissor which is covered with bacteria to cut the meat(food)? What is in her mind? What she's thinking about?My mum kept on explain to her and was about help her to cut the meat using a proper scissor, but with her stubborn character, she stopped her to do so. At last both of them argued with each other again. I know she's heartbroken. She thought that what was wrong for using that scissor to cut the meat after she clean it. She totally forgt about those simple knowledge. I am sorry for her.
Saturday, September 26, 2009
Him
Thursday, September 24, 2009
Tears

I felt very sad as i can't do a very simple equation. This question is driving me crazy. I am anxious for the coming exam. Can I finish up all the topics? Grandma keeps swinging recently. She's changed. She never laugh in these few days. We seldom talk to each other. What's wrong with her? I don't understand her anymore. Please bring me back my grandma. I love her.
~bad girl~
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
Out of tune
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
sHOPPING~
Monday, September 21, 2009
Miley Cyrus
At first when I heard about Hannah Montana, "Oh~ tat girl not interested". But after I watched her movie this morning, I start to admire her. Mayb is juz her character in the movie..oh~ I duno. She's the type of the girl I like(in the movie). I'm not sure whether she's like that in her real life. Hey thr, I am not a lesbian okay!
I love that part when her father asked her to sang for him. I'm so touched. That song was my feeling too. Then the guy in the movie was T-totally hot. The story was pretty cool and I love it very much. I like smth like country story, country feel, fresh air, fresh grass. And then you can ride on a horse to anywhere you like(waterfall??with someone)..but also not too country feel. I don like to feed birds, chickens, get their eggs..yuks
Miley, you rock the house..yeah~
Monday, August 31, 2009
The 10th Day (last day)
Morning
12.00 - 1.00 : Story book
1.01 - 8.40 : Sleeping
9.00 - 9.30 : Breakfast
9.31 - 10.00 : Story book
10.01 - 10.30 : Flying down
10.31 - 11.30 : Reach to destination (Tukang Emas)
11.31 - 12.00 : Hanging around, buy lunch (chicken rice)
Afternoon
12.01 - 12.30 : Flying back
12.31 - 1.00 : Lunch
1.00 - 2.30 : story book
2.31 - 4.30 : Sleeping
4.31 - 5.30 : Computing
5.31 - 6.00 : Bath
Evening
6.01 - 7.00 : Tv (channel 301)
7.01- 7.30 : Dinner
7.31 - 8.00 : Cleaning
8.01 - : Drama, computing, story book
Since today is the last day of holiday, so I read my story till 1 in the morning. Actually, I can continue reading, but I think that is not very good to my health. My mum always reminds us: 11.00 pm 3.00am, you all must be sleeping already. You know let the body to.......
Yesterday, I played Restaurant City till 11pm. The worst thing is I din put 'em to 'est how sad....hope they are ok..haha..I am so cruel
So, how is your holiday? You can see mind. I really get enough rest and fun through this holiday. Hey this will be my second last school holiday in August (Form 4) . I dun think uni got holiday at this moment...I should ask my sis whether she's now in holiday o not.
Get ready for school and back to normal^^
Saturday, August 29, 2009
The 9th Day
Morning
12.00 - 9.00 : Sleeping
9.01 - 9.30 : Packing
9. 31 - 10.00 : Breakfast
10.01 - 11.00 : Story book
Afternoon
11.00 - 12.30 : Sleeping
12.31 - 1.00 : Dreaming
1.01 - 5.00 : Computing, story book
5.01 - 5.30 : Bath
5.31 - 6.00 : Computing
Evening
6.01 - 7.00 : Preparing foods
7.01 - 8.10 : Steamboat
8.11 - 8. 30 : Clean up
8.31 - : computing, story book, Tv
Today, I sleep like a pig..NGOHH nGOhhh. I am very happy also, because I can sign in to Restaurant City already. But my restaurant was very dirty and two of my workers are dying. I remember last time I played, I did set them to rest. Do you that, my mail box had 3 messages, but I cant even answer or shot even one of them correctly..
"Row, row, row your boat gently down the stream~" We had a simple steamboat in the dinning room. Although it was only 4 of us and the other 2 were 'missing' I felt very happy and warm. Tell you what, my neighbour has addicted to burning his grass or maybe the whole garden in his backyard. The smoke always get into every inches of my house. The worst part is our dinning room behind. All of us cannot stand anymore especially my grandmother.
The 8th Day
Morning
12.00 - 9.00 : Sleeping
9.01 - 9.30 : Breakfast
9.31 - 10.00 : Packing
10.01 - 11.00 : Tv (Channel 314)
11.01 - 11.59 : Story book
Aftern0on
12.00 - 1.59 : Lunch, drama, computing
2.00 - 4.00 : Sleeping
4.01 - 4.59 : Drama
5.00 - 5.29 : Washing
Evening
5.30 - 6.00 : Bath
6.00 - 8.00 : Computing, wathing movie (LOTR 1)
8.00 - 8.30 : Dinner
8.31- : Cleaning, movie, Tv, story book
Friday, August 28, 2009
The 6th Day
Morning
12.00 - 9.30 : Sleeping, dreaming
9.31 - 11.59: breakfast, computing
Afternoon
12.00 - 1.00 : drama time
1.01 - 2.00 : Sleeping
2.01 - 3.40 : movie time
3.41 - 6.00 : Computing, homework
Evening
6.01 - 7.00 : drama, dinner
7.01 - 9.10 : Add Math time
9.11 - : drama, supper, snacks
I've watched some trailers and found some interesting movies as below:
-The princess and The Frog (disney)
- 生日(very thouching)
- Arthur and the revenge of maltazard (his grandpa is thr)
- Alvin and The Chipmunks the squeakquel (familiar?)
-The Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus (do you like Alice in the wonderland??
- Twilight the New Moon (Eveyone know that)
- The Box (scary)
- Zombieland (funny perhaps?)
- Shutter Island (horrible)
The 7th Day
Morning
12.00 - 9.00 : Sleeping, dreaming
9.01 - 9.30 : TV (channel 315 *for my mummy)
9.31 - 10.00 : Breakfast
10.01 - 11.00 : Tv (channel 314 *one of my favourites)
11.01 - 12.00 : Story book
Afternoon
12.01 - 2.00 : Drama time, lunch
2.00 - 3.00 : sleep
3.00 - 3.30 : on the way to...
3.31 - 5.00 : Dr. Thian
5.00 - 5.30 : On the way back
5.31 - 6.00 : Computer time
Evening
6.01- 7.00 : Tv (channel 301)
7.01 - 7.30 : Dinner
7.31 - 8.30 : Computer time
8.30 - 9.00 : Bath
9.00 - : Tv, computing, story book, drama
I think today I don have enough time to watch a movie~ Oh man, today is the 7th day (Friday) of holiday; Tuesday have to back to school. Honestly, I don think I am ready yet.... Exam is coming soon. If you think deeper and deeper, SPM is just around the corner...and then what will happen? Do you dare to think about it? Or can you guess whr will you be after 2 years? And see how accurate is your guessing? Hmm..probably NS first. At first, I would like to be in the campsite of East Malaysia as I've been to Sandakan's NS campsite for 3 days. But now, nope and not ANYMORE. I want to stay in Sandakan with my friends. You know, a lot of them are IN..wOow.
As you know or you might not, I have a bit short-sightedness. Today under this dim and gloomy night, I found a (dead *maybe) bird in front of my car park. At first I thought that it was a Frog. Because it is green in colour and I was standing quite far away from it. So I began to feel curious about it as it was not moving. Then I walked toward to the frog and bend down slowly to observe it. Eventually, at the moment I knew it was a bird with green feather, I was like (you will know the answer if you know me) That was a disaster to me. My mum said that was a gorgeous bird..Ohh
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
The 5th day
~ Kakashi sensei, can you be my sensei?? ^^Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Holiday??
Saturday, July 18, 2009
I beg your pardon!
Yeah~ I went to watch HP yesterday with TSM, Ivy, Jane, CS (not CS. Lewis) and later on meet with KM, En and Cl
Before the movie start five of us went to play bowling. That was the first time I tried bowling. My first ball hit most the bottles down and left four more..^^ You have to apply Bernoulli's principle. But a few balls of mine masuk longkang too. Hey, the fee was quite expensive for me (RM 20/h) and you have to pay extra RM 1.60 for the shoes. If you don't have a socks then you have to buy from the counter too.
Guess what, when the movie was end, I met Deepika and her gang. They were actually in the same theater with us, but still I didn't realized it. Lastly, we saw Leng and etc.

In the bowling court

Okashi ee~

She slept when the movie was playing *slap her*

Happy Ending~
For those who haven't watch the movie, I advise you to read the book first. If not you will definitely fall asleep in the half way like them and that will be a waste
I'm lovin it
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Thinking of you
"I'm thinking of you."
"Who?"
"Not you." =.=
Neorago~On..on...on..only for you
Recently, we keep discussing about this song-"It's you". I like YeSung ne~^^
That's what you get when you let your heart win, whao
Although this is not her new song, but still i love it very much. Paramore so YAY, so COOL COOL COOL
A lot to do today. My Malay teacher suddenly asked me to have my oral test on tomorrow. I haven't get ready yet, i never think of it, never. "Hey, tomorrow is my turn to take the oral test, yay, I'm so glad" (*ATTENTION plz* this words would never come out from my mouth). Aiks, gotta memorise it and find a fat guy picture as i am choosing the topic on ''obesity". Special thanks to LoTz's book. Whose darling?^^
Next, havta type out the full and complete name list for Camboree. There are about 190 names to type. "Wait for me until i finish typing the obes, n.a.m.e.s."
Last? i think so, and that is non other than the slide show competition for science and vocational week. "Don't 4gt to burn it into a CD ar..."
All the works shown above havta admit by TOMORROW. I haven't count in my homework and other jobs that havta admit later on.Hmm...duno until when i only can watch the movies in my com and Hong Kong drama without skipping or missing out any part.
P.S: I typed these on Wed nite actually
Sunday, June 14, 2009
I'm BACk ( Senior camp brief edition)
pls W.A.I.T for the complete edition
Thursday, May 28, 2009
Wherever you go

Last day of the school and you are supposed to be very happy and bright. ''I agree". Am i a freak or what? The whole day seemed to be getting dull and darker. I couldn't explain why as me myself also dunno what's wrong with me. The celebration was good but not that great; my friends were so funny especially for 2day; the whole evening in school was cool; having dinner with my ibu bapa angkat was fun, but my kakak angkat said that i am not like usual that happy-go-lucky gal. " That's true, even my mum CANT feel that i am not happy" ( S.A.D )
Sunday, May 17, 2009
Faith


Friday, May 15, 2009
On Top of The World
What is in my head: This is not the end YET
Coming soon: 1. Go cinema watch Angels & Demons (2molo)
in May 2. Rehearsal for Chamber Strings (2molo)
3. Performance for '' (the day after 2molo)
4. Next GB meeting (coming Thursday)
5. Decorate our class (coming Thursday)
6. Cleaning up the school library (coming Thursday)
7. Cleaning up the school library again (next next Thursday)
8. Meeting for Senior Camp (unknown)
9. Next Camboree meeting (unknown)
I'm felling quite moody when the day started and a student's life you know, almost everything is related to school. So, is that mean l am happy in school? Ya, kind of. After the exam, most of the teachers aren't teaching and absent too. So, we're just spending our time talking and doing nonsense, waste of time only. Besides, l also don't feel like studying, mayb 50/50 like that. But if l start to study, other ppl might think that l am a weirdo. Because l seldom do revision in front of them.
Back to the point. I am happy because of the strings practise yesterday. I enjoyed playing in the chamber strings just like you're being in an orchestra. Until now, those pieces are still playing cheerfully in my head. I am flying in the blue blue sky, following the flow of the music and being excited for the next journey.
Actually l was born ed in a complicated family. I mean the pass of my family was very complicated and was so puzzled. Especially my grandma, she has some relationship problems with some of my relatives. Recently, l can feel that she's feeling so alone all these days. If she's not happy, then it will actually brings disaster to the whole family. Now, my grandma is falling sick and so disappointed after she heard of those fresh whole new unexpected bad news about........Oh, i just advise them to be more mature in my heart and don't poison the life of the person who care about you. I feel very blank when l look into her eyes.
I hope that my own family members will bring laughter to her again as all of you are coming back this holiday.
- reading Naruto 'On top of the world'
Friday, April 17, 2009
lala

What do you feel about this picture?
Lonely, but full of hope and energy to stand up?
recently used word: Yo, man
current music: Alvin and the chipmunks- jingle bells
Interested in: Marine biology, Taylor College and psychology in Help College
Yo, man. 'Alvin and the chipmunks' reminds me of watching the animated version with my sis when i was still in kinder garden. But now don't mention about it anymore, i am feeling distraught. I miss you more than you miss me jie. All these times, i only pretending that i don't very care about you . Because, don't wish to let you to see to weak side of me. I am always the strong one in handling insects in front of you especially 小强 ^0^ and the one that can make you burst into laughter all the time because of my idiocies. When are you going to come back? I have already fed up at looking at your recently updated pictures. All i want is the real YOU. I need you all, bro, sis, fa to bring the place where we called HOME and FAMILY back. Honestly, since you been gone, i don't really have that kind of family feeling inside my soul anymore. Sometimes, i feel that everything is quite unreal. Like all of you are just pretending there. Do you ever have this kind of feeling before? Never mind, I won't fail myself. Just want to let you know how i feel about 'em.^^
Ya, right. jingle bells reminds me of that person=jingebell. It was a nightmare of me in form 2 second semester. All my classmates knew about it. Oh man, we are such a foolish person. So childish, never think before we do. ' That scene' is still playing clearly in my head.

HEROES volume 4, episode 10
Just finish watching episode 10 about the place Cayote Sands. What a mysterious name is it? Now i know Angela had that kind of childhood before, how sad. Actually everything is started from her nightmare. If they didn't leave that place and her sister, Alice the weather controller won't be so scare to cause the disaster. Poor childhood. But still they haven't completely tell us the beginning of the story. Who was the first person to have an ability? Who discovered them? How they knew there were a few of them? What kind of injections that they injected into their bodies? Who started the experiment? Tell me more about Dr. Suresh's father. Wow, now Sylar
is the shape maker. He can be anybody he wants to be. Then, other people will be very dangerous. Can't wait for the next episode.
~Love Claire
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
One week holiday~
A. my study
B. my school works
C. my homework
D. finised all the movie that i had downlaoded b4
E. Sleep
F. Sports
G. Story books
H. EAT
I. Watch drama
J. ( blank)
K. Camping
A / C / B
WRONG! Oh no~ i tell you what. Someone out thr steal my study mood. What can you help? Oh, a lots. But the most important thing is help me call the detective (Conan), inspectors all that see if they can find someone wearing the invisible cloth which he/she steals from Harry Potter
and a lot of my study mood hiding inside the cloth.
D
hrm...okay. But that's impossible for me to finish all. It is too many in the cargo dear
E
Sry, for sure i will go to sleep for a few hours a day. But not the whole holiday^^Plz study the question carefully
F
I'll zip my mouth for tis part. Bcoz i never go to sport since all of them left me behind after the Chinese New Year . Oh ya..except in the Junior Camp a few days ago* I love it( the story will be published soon, It is too long babe)
G
Ya..read story books everynight before i go to sleep. That's fasinating! But now everytime i read a story book then i will think of my study. I have the time to read story books why dont i go and study for my school?
H
NOPE, i dont eat much. I'm that kind of person that know hw to control my own appetite.
I
ei? Almost same as 'D', skip this one
J
*BLANK* Plz fill i the blank with the most suitable words. [100 m]
K
Perfect choice! CAMPING is what i want now....hurray
10.21 pm still thinking about the Junior Camp and hope to have outdoor activities with my friends
Saturday, February 28, 2009
Tiring morning+_+

Wednesday, February 25, 2009
now
List of works:
1. Bio peka
2. Add math
3. Math
4. History
5. Malay
Ah~ all these have to pass up by 2molo. Add math is driving me crazy. Sis, come back and teach me. Then i'll have my chemistry test on Friday. How am i goin to study? I have sitted for my biology and moral test this week and i have to pass up the school magazine works on this Friday. Not finish yet, i have work to do with the school library because they are less of people although i am not the member of the school library. I won't get extra marks for these. How about Girls' Brigade? Every Sunday got meeting( 11am- 4.45pm) . Now we are preparing for the Junior Camp on this coming March and we have to practice drama for Easter Celebration on this April. Actually i love drama, but there are too many things to do. I'm not a robot, i'm just an ordinary person. This coming Sturday, i have to go for Hari Belia Meeting 8am - 1pm. One more thing, violin lessons. But i love violin and this will be an entertainment for me. My teacher knows me very well too and that will brighten my days.
How am i goin to get through this?
I understand everyone have to go through this. Is just i'm not used to it. Now i know, form 4 and above cannot compare to form 3 and below. I am waiting for myself to finish all these things one by one; step by step. I'll wait for that moment and i hope that i have the opportunity to watch the movies and dramas that i have downloaded. Without the movies, i am about to out of control.
Monday, February 16, 2009
My target (17/02/09)
1. Finish my math
2. Study my chinese for tomorrow test
3. Finish my malay homework
4. Study my Biology for the test on next week
5. *If can study my chemistry for the test on next week too
Target for tomorrow in school
1. Score an A in my chinese test
2. Finish my EST script
3. Finish the drama strory line for Easter Celebration on April and give it to Mandy
4. Finish sticking the photos of the student for the school magazine next year ( at least one class )
5. Remember to inform class 4A about the photos and collect photos from 4F
6. Pay full attention in class ( don't be sleepy )
Target for next week * draft
1. Score an A in my Biology test for chapter 3
2. Score an A in my Chemistry test for chapter 2 and 3
- 4.05pm after taking my bath










